Patiently Waiting

As I get older with age I find more and more reasons to ever get my hopes up about finding, "The One". Being 22 and being single my whole life, it becomes difficult to think that there is someone out there for me. I know I am still young but people at my age have normally been in at least one relationship. But, not me. Not even close. Many people tell me that I am lucky because I haven't had my heart broken. Sorry, my people, you're wrong. I have had my heart broken because the guys that I have liked have not liked me back. All of them. I honestly believe that it is worse than a three to eight month relationship. At least you got to test out the waters within that amount of time and the guy genuinely liked you back. For me, all I can say is, "What is wrong with me? Am I not pretty enough? Does my personality suck?" So many questions and they're not even answered. When you go through a break up at least you know why (well hopefully you know why) someone doesn't want to be with you anymore. With me, I am left with the questions stated above.

Though I have never been in a relationship, I have seen all of my gal-friends go through their share of boyfriends. I see the damage these boys do to them. Whether it be a short relationship or a long term one I have been there with them through it all. The relationships that lasted a year to two years were the hardest to go through with them. They had put so much time, effort, and heart into them. They would start to plan their lives together not knowing that it would only end within a short length of time. Then when the break-up happens it was like their life no longer made sense. But, I would be there through it all and show them my love and compassion and tell them, "He wasn't good enough for you. You're better off with out him.". Then my planning would begin. I would start to plan little things to keep their mind occupied, or more frequent lunch dates to let them know that they were not alone. I think the hardest part for my friends and their broken hearts were the parts when they had to start doing things by themselves. Or when the cute little text messages stopped even though they had been a part of their life for the past year or two.

Even though I have never been in a relationship myself, my friends' relationships have taught me a lot about them. And I feel that if I can give my friends insight that there is someone out there for them, then I myself can have a positive outlook as well. I know "The One" is out there for me, I just need to put it in God's hands and be patient and wait.
~ADA